<TITLE>02. Par 8-11</TITLE>L-8   And I don't try to... I do not try to--to say too much about it on, you know, around people complaining. Because, I think, one of the horriblest things is to see a--a man or a woman that's constantly complaining. I've always thought, "God, keep me from it." See, that--that weakens faith all the time, you know. You just--you just... if you--if you... I know as they get older, each one of us, we're going to get something happen and something happen. And I know those little things are going to keep accumulating, that's as you get older, they just got to. But I think one of the most horrible things, is for Satan to crown some person's life: a crabbed old man or an old woman, you see. I--I hope that I don't get to that place. I hope that I can bear it, my burdens, and--and get to a spot to where... I want my life crowned with the Glory of God: His longsuffering, gentleness, peace, meekness, and filled with the Holy Spirit.

L-9   And I... one of my main things that's always hurt me through my life, has been a nervous condition. That when I get so worn, then I get real weary. I get... kind of feel like nobody cares for you, you know, and--and you're all... You have it, too. And I just happen to have a real overdose of it, you know, and it gets real bad sometime, and I can't hardly... It's tension, and that's what does it. And I get to a spot then that many times, especially with so many of those visions, you see, it just gets me. I look at a person, I think, "This is a vision. No, no, no, it isn't. Yes! Is it not?" You see? And you just don't realize what a price goes with that. So then--so then you--you wonder. Then you get to thinking, "Well, you're..." Then you get off your side and say, "Well, now, what--what have I done? Here I am, I'm--I'm fifty years old and I've done nothing for the Lord; and I--I'm getting old And what's...? Oh, my." Then you just get the... what we used to call "the blues." Some of you brethren about my age remember what they used to call "have the blues." Pop used to talk about it and I wondered what he meant, and I sure know now what he meant. So then, you get to feeling that way, which is none of it true; it's just you, you know it. See, you know it, it's just you doing that.

L-10   So I was trying to quieten myself a little bit now, and get ready for the--the big push that I hope coming soon. And then through... I've got to go to New York right away, and I... to a meeting up there, a campaign. And then down to Shreveport, then go back to Phoenix. And then come around the west... the south border of the United States. And then they're making arrangements for overseas now, to begin as soon as we can after the first of the year, maybe March, April, something like that; where you start in Stockholm or Oslo, and go around the world, if we can on this next tour.

L-11   And now I'm home, kind of resting up a little bit, to get kind of back to myself and kind of 'cuperated. And if the Lord's willing, I'll be back next Sunday, from down in Kentucky. And--and if it's all right, pleasing to the Lord, and Brother Neville don't mind; well, I'll just try to have the service next Sunday, if--if the Lord willing. And if He's just as willing as Brother Neville is, I--I'll be here. You see? Yes sir, if He's just as willing about it as Brother Neville. I hope He is. Now, see, then I know I'm soon, if the Lord willing, I'm going to be gone from you quite a while.


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